Sunday, November 16, 2008

A lot of feelings

For those of you who do not know, and some who could care less. I called the Humane Society to ck on my pups that are not my pups anymore. Doc and Champ are gone. Magda is suffering from and infection and I can only pray she gets better. I had no idea I would miss them so much. Knowing what i know now I would have never given my puppies away like that. But, what is done is done. and there is no going back.

Now, lets talk about adventures. I am glad my children have never been afraid to go on adventures of all kinds, even if it meant moving far away. That means I done my job and did it well. Now for me on the other hand, sometimes i feel like i cant even go to the bathroom unless i ask someone if its ok. One day I want be afraid to go on adventures, and come back with all kind of tales to share. So dont be surprised when one day you call and I am off seeing the country. I will not ask, advise, or get an opinion. I will just put the girls in the car and go. Thats what I should have done for the past 3 yrs, but fear has always stopped me. I am up to here^ with being afraid go do on adventures by myself. I dont want to stay home all the time and never go anywhere or do anything. Not experiencing life like I told my kids, never be afraid to go and do things. Well look at me afraid to get in my car and just go. Why, I have no clue except always thinking of money, the house, what if something happen and i wasnt home, all those kind of things. So one day soon, I am hitting the road, just so whoever reads this knows.

I am going I dont know, but going and eating new foods, trying different things, and I can assure u I will come back a more adventures person.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

No Puppies for me to love

On Nov 6th, of this year all my puppies moved on to another life. Maggie went to a lady at the Pets office, I know she is going to be loved and taken care of. My heart breaks and the tears flow when I think of Doc, Champ, and Magda. They went to a no kill shelter. Other than Belle, and Samantha, there were no puppies loved anymore than mine. I hated to let them go, but with money and time there was no other choice. I just pray they find a family that will love, and enjoy them as much as I did for what little time I had them. They were so wonderful and funny.

Yes, I am glad I have Belle, Sam and Chee Chee, but since i had had the puppies since birth i had developed a relationship with each and every one. It still makes me cry to think of them thinking i sent them away when they had given me such devoted love and believed in me to take care of them the best of my ability. I hope one day I will know that they are good and loved.

I know most of you think I am so silly, but when u live alone and come home to your pets who always are so glad to see you and just want to give you love, it makes a big difference.