Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Oh Dear what to do

Yesterday for some reason my hip and leg were in so much pain, i just wanted to scream. Rebecca and Tony came over and we did a few projects, I cooked dinner, we had a good time. But I was in so much pain it was all I could do was not cry. It just got worse as the night went on. I took some tynole pm 2 of them and said to myself if these dont take affect by a certain time i was going to drive myself to the hospital. I mean it kept me awake the night before, dont have a clue what the matter is, was thinking blood clot, all kind of terrible things. Well by forty minutes I did have relieve, ahh it felt so good not to be in such pain. It is back this morning. Its not only that pain, but my neck and shoulders I feel like I am falling apart. On top of that the hot water heater is broke so Had to call a plumber out today dont know how much that is going to cost, but its leaking water down the overflow pipe which is making my water bill and electric bill outrages. Could I fix it myself? Dont know, but at the moment i am in so much pain I dont think I could if I could.

I dont know if anyone reads my blogs, i never get any comments, but I write anyway. I dont have babies to write about except for Tristan, Olivia, Connor, and Emily. They are my grandchildren, and for the record i named them in birth order and always will that way no one will ever say i love one more than the other. Cause u cant love one more than the other. Oh my they are all so precious and wonderful it makes me cry and tear up to think of them and just want to hug them all. I so miss not seeing them on a regular base.

I saw Connor sat after i got off work and he actually gave me a hug and didnt spit up on me LOL, it was so precious. I get to see him tomorrow and looking forward to another hug and hearing him laugh. I cant wait. Hip, leg, neck, or shoulder pain is going to keep me away from him tomorrow. I pray anyway.

Thank you to Rebecca and Tony for coming and letting me share with you some of my knowledge yesterday. I know Tony didnt think he did well, but it was awesome what he did, Rebecca did very well and i cant wait to see the finish product. It always takes more time than u think that projects will. So she didnt get to finish had to take it home to finish.

Just for the record, I am so proud of all my children, and this encludes everyone, Tony and Stacey are mine too. I may not have given birth to them, but I love them and would do any thing I could to help them. I could go on and on about Stacey, she is one amazing person, mother, wife, friend, sister, daughter, and all the other labels she carries. And of course not in those order, but as she is needed.
Tony loves my daughter and he has so many talents, that a lot of ppl never see. He really dont want anyone to know what a great person he is so i want list his assets. But know he truly is a wonderful person.

Ok i have written a book today so this makes up for the past few months.

Laura, I hope ur surgery goes well tomorrow call me if u need me.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Coming home

This past weekend I went to Jeremy's and Stacey's. It was so much fun being with the family. We talked, played, and just spent time together. Tristan and Olivia were wonderful. It was so good to hold her, watch her play, and she is so funny. Tristan is always such a pleasure to be around. I so love my grandchildren. The only thing is coming home. When i come home to the empty house I get so depressed and i realize how lonely I am. After being home awhile i get used to the quite, but it does take a few days. Of course it will not stop me from visiting and having all the fun I do, just got to figure out how not to get so depressed after.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Its beginning to look, smell, and feel like Christmas

Yes, even I am getting into the spirit. I actually put up my little Charlie Brown Christmas tree in the front window so the light show and ppl can see them from outside, but the biggest thing, I turned on my outside Christmas lights that have been hanging there for over 15 yrs, and yes surprising to me they still work.

There for the longest I wouldn't do anything because it made me feel sad and more alone, but now, I do it for me and the ppl passing by who see the lights and maybe bring a little light or smile to their lives.

I havent said much about the puppies lately. I still miss them, but I am more grateful for the ones I have. When I sit on the sofa watching tv and Belle, Sam and Chee Chee are all laying there in my lap, half on my lap, right next to me and I here a sigh of contentment from one or all of them at some point how can i not be happy.

Tristan can vouch for this, when I was so sick and was in the bed for a day, they never left my side, as long as i lay in bed they are there. That is such a comfort to me. I appreciate what Tristan did to help out during that time, I appreciate Aylson, Effie's friend who came over and took care of all of us and made sure my two grandsons where taken good care of. I must say it was an experience, but honestly i was so sick I dont remember much about that day.

I just know that I am one blessed person, and am very grateful, for my family, friends, and my loving dogs.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

A lot of feelings

For those of you who do not know, and some who could care less. I called the Humane Society to ck on my pups that are not my pups anymore. Doc and Champ are gone. Magda is suffering from and infection and I can only pray she gets better. I had no idea I would miss them so much. Knowing what i know now I would have never given my puppies away like that. But, what is done is done. and there is no going back.

Now, lets talk about adventures. I am glad my children have never been afraid to go on adventures of all kinds, even if it meant moving far away. That means I done my job and did it well. Now for me on the other hand, sometimes i feel like i cant even go to the bathroom unless i ask someone if its ok. One day I want be afraid to go on adventures, and come back with all kind of tales to share. So dont be surprised when one day you call and I am off seeing the country. I will not ask, advise, or get an opinion. I will just put the girls in the car and go. Thats what I should have done for the past 3 yrs, but fear has always stopped me. I am up to here^ with being afraid go do on adventures by myself. I dont want to stay home all the time and never go anywhere or do anything. Not experiencing life like I told my kids, never be afraid to go and do things. Well look at me afraid to get in my car and just go. Why, I have no clue except always thinking of money, the house, what if something happen and i wasnt home, all those kind of things. So one day soon, I am hitting the road, just so whoever reads this knows.

I am going I dont know, but going and eating new foods, trying different things, and I can assure u I will come back a more adventures person.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

No Puppies for me to love

On Nov 6th, of this year all my puppies moved on to another life. Maggie went to a lady at the Pets office, I know she is going to be loved and taken care of. My heart breaks and the tears flow when I think of Doc, Champ, and Magda. They went to a no kill shelter. Other than Belle, and Samantha, there were no puppies loved anymore than mine. I hated to let them go, but with money and time there was no other choice. I just pray they find a family that will love, and enjoy them as much as I did for what little time I had them. They were so wonderful and funny.

Yes, I am glad I have Belle, Sam and Chee Chee, but since i had had the puppies since birth i had developed a relationship with each and every one. It still makes me cry to think of them thinking i sent them away when they had given me such devoted love and believed in me to take care of them the best of my ability. I hope one day I will know that they are good and loved.

I know most of you think I am so silly, but when u live alone and come home to your pets who always are so glad to see you and just want to give you love, it makes a big difference.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Smart Puppies

Today is a cold and rainy day. Oh, i had my comfy position in bed all warm and cozy, Belle, Sam and Chee Chee had theirs. Now, go figure the day Comcast is to come and pick up their stuff and cut off my service they would be here early. Not like usual where when u waiting on ur service so u can get online or watch the tube. So the one day I could sleep in I didnt get to, oh well.

Just wanted to share something about the pups today. It being all cold and rainy. I have been keeping them inside in a crate. Even they were sleeping soundly and not whinning to go outside, which was really a surprise to me. Until the comcast man came and woke us all up.

When i went to give them some breakfast, they were in Chee Chee's old dog house that papa had given me when George brought Chee Chee to me. I was just a little surprised thinking they would be under my shop where they usually sleep. But then i get to thinking the ground is cold there is nice warm straw and stuff in the dog house. Now, I think that is so smart of them to all go in the dog house to stay warm and get out of the rain. And they did it on their own. Ok, so I am impressed with them for doing that. What can I say, I think it was smart of them.

Thanks to Rebecca I did sell one of the puppies, I still have four. Even though I have had several calls from the web site I have them on no one has actually come for them. What to do, What to do. Need to get Chee Chee fixed, talked with Wayne Ef's friend yesterday, and he is going to see what he can do. His girlfriend might be able to help me out there.

I dont know if anyone is reading these post. Maybe they are too long, any input would be nice.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Mt. Lakes

I cant believe Mt. Lakes still has its charm, warmth, and fun. Even the cabins smell the same as when I and my children used to go up.
Every summer it was something we all looked forward to. I had forgotten what it was like.

My friend Peggy and I were suppose to go caving at Mammoth Cave in Ky. But plans got changed as they do in life so we went to Mt. Lakes. I am so glad I have kept it and I know I will be going back soon. You would not believe how busy it was even on a Monday. With ppl walking the streets in Helen and some with their pets, and yes I mean pets. This time I didnt worry about money, I hate what I wanted and I can not tell you how great it felt. For the first time in my life I ate like I was skinny minnie, and had money in my mattress, LOL, and it felt wonderful. No joke I ate more in three days than I normally eat in a wk. And I dont regret one penny that I spent.

The view is still amazing up at the club house, and the indoor pool and hot tub were so inviting.

Yes, I took a TV and that too was fun in it self, and yes it played me to sleep both nights. I slept in the living room on the footon. Now if i could get internet there now that would be awesome. They do have a few hot spots, just got to know where they are.

Well, thats all on this adventure, hope you enjoyed the news